What should I get?

Got invited to a christmas party and I have not gotten the present ready yet. Oh no~!!

I seems to be infected with flu virus... at this time..when it is holidays season. I think I will swallow loads of vitamin c when I go home and sleep the whole afternoon. Hopefully that will work and I will be ok.

The gift... That is something I am going to have to think long and hard. Something that can be suitable for a guy or a girl. I am considering a few options.

One of them is to buy toiletries... But the risk is that the fragrance - I cant differentiate the feminine or masculine fragrance.

Then, there this is this iTunes Online gift. I will be able to customize my gift according to the person I want to give to. No worries about it.

Got to rush out. Need to check that iTunes out asap. There isn't much time left.

Family

One thing that I have been regretting the most is probably the fact that I did not get the chance to take a family portrait with Grandpa and Grandma when I have grown up. I am not talking about the family photo taken at home with a home camera but with a professional photographer.

But it is quite expensive to get such picture taken because of the sitting fee. It is annoying that one need to pay upfront such fee before the photos are taken.

Recently as I was surfing around the Internet, I stumbled upon a site that offers some attractive stuff. First of all, there is sitting fee. Yea!! Then, you can get $50 off coupon. Another Yea! That is a lot of savings.

Here is the down for me. It is available only in Philadelphia. But if you are in that area, do check out New Jersey Beach Portraits.

To get or not to get

I am contemplating between getting this accounting program or not. The thing is that to get it will mean that I need to get a loan from Mumsie but I dont want to. But not to get it will mean I have to work extra hard to complete the book keeping.

Decision decision.

Havent been able to reach Mumsie to discuss this with here. Is this a sign that I shouldnt get the program?

Ah... Decision..decision...

Opps! I did it again!

Opps~~!

Once again, I have fallen into the trap of online shopping. I dont have to step out of the house or should I say office to buy stuff. This time, I bought a Gucci inspired handbag. Gasp~

Recently I found another place where they offer a lot of stuff that is quite retro and to be honest, I miss those stuff. For example, the Pokemon card. I remember JWei used to be so crazy and played with the cards whole day. I wonder if I get the cards for him now, will he still be interested in them? Maybe not. Maybe he will ponder about it for a while and then put it aside... Talk about having new things to play with.

If only... If only I have all the cash in the world, I would buy all the pins in the whole world...Hehe.. Looking at those pins makes me think of my pathetic pins collection. I would really love to add a few more pins to my Disney's seven dwarves collection - make it a complete Disney pins collection. Wouldnt that sounds nice?

Ah.. time to get back to reality. :p

Boys Before Flower

It is actually Meteor Garden... Hana Yori Dango... In Korean.

And so, Koreans decided that they will have their own version of Meteor Garden. Many wonder if they will be able to surpass the two other versions. I mean, come on, we all know the story already...

I havent been interested enough to watch it but ... after seeing quite a number of posts on how it is very interesting, I decided to give it a try.

Ermmm.. First part of Episode 1... I guess the way Koreans talk is one of the interesting part. All the 'grrr' and 'aigooo' are quite funny and expressive lor.

Guess I will watch the rest tonight.

Is it just me?

I am thinking that I am becoming more and more disrecpectfultowards my parents. I am getting more and more agitated with their actions and attitude.

I wonder if it is because of communication problem. We dont really talk. We hardly talk. Somemore, I feel like my opinion does not matter.

Constantly get put off by them. I hate it.

Could it because I have been living alone for too long?

Parenting

Listened to a conversation between my friend and her friend during breakfast this morning. It made me realise something about having children.

I guess first-timer mum usually worried about the pain of giving birth to the baby. I dont deny that the pain involved during the process of giving birth and then the pain during the recovery time. But this painful experience will be nothing to be afraid of once it is over... unless there is some other complication during the second and coming birth-giving.

Anyways, what is more important is the process of raising the child. Ohmigosh...the trauma at this stage is greater than during child-birth and it will never end. Just thinking about this is so scary.

But I still want to get married and have babies. haha...

Awkward

I guess I am still quite socially shy. I just simply do not know how to talk to people I am not close to.

Actually, even if I am close to someone, I think there will be some day that I am off, disconnected from them.

Recently, I am faced with some financial difficulties. I have anticipated that I will be spending quite an amount of cash on a few things in this month. I should just enough to cover for the expenses but one huge expense came up and disrupt my not-very-perfect spending plan.

I tried to hint my Dad that I will be totally broke but I guess he is broke as well because he didnt bother to give me any cash. Kind of disappointed because of this. I guess I prefer that he at least showed that he gets my hint.

Anyways, I am extremely grateful that my bad debt has gone alive and they have decided to pay me afterall. So... I am not totally broke. I am still surviving financially.

Irresponsible People

I just witness a case of irresponsibility.

See... My house garbage bin is placed outside of the house, at the driveway...Between the house and the road, there is this big drain.

My neighbour... neighbour's relative, to be exact... reversed the car and knocked over my house garbage bin and caused the bin cover to fall into the drain. At such situation, normally I would try to retrieve the cover and put it back.

But guess what? The guy just waved it off and left! Ohmigosh. What the hell?

I am now going to have to retrieve the cover from the drain before it gets washed away. Fucking irresponsible people!

Saggy

Hmm.. This is kind of personal. As in PERSONAL.

BODY PERSONAL.

hehe... Someone... someone I know. Someone I am not close to though. She made me feel that I should be worrying about my... err... my... err... yea, cant say / write it out.

Erm... Having the right attire is so important, really. The right one will make the whole person looks different.

This will be a not-make-sense post.

Just heard that the company annual dinner date has been decided. It felt so.. sudden. I hope it will be somewhere nice and we can have loads of fun. I am feeling a lost of connection with some people already.

Which reminds of a person. I find myself unable to understand why our friendship has gone to such a state. I have no idea how to salvage it either.

bickering

it is funny. the incident. I actually encountered it before but I think I have never really said it outloud. Why have i never say it outloud? I guess it is because I was trying to stay out of the way and not to be in the way of other ppl's business.

Somehow, I just couldnt stand it anymore. I was too annoyed.

Ah! The poor man rich man syndrome. So frustrating. so contradicting. I wonder if they even know about it.

I shouldnt be lecturing about this anyways. Zipped my mouth.

Weakening resolution

i think my resolution is getting weaker and weaker. which is like really bad because I really need to keep it up.

I need to continue reminding myself of what I want to achieve.

Then, I am also worried of the fact that I seems to be quite lost about what to do about my future. my future.. i mean the 5-year plan. My current plan is almost at its end. I have achieved...well, still in the process of achieving... what I need to achieve.

Ah! Be strong!

Black-painted fingernails

He once told me that black fingernails doesnt suit me. I dont have 'it' to carry such look.

I still wonder what is this 'it' that he means.

But one thing though... whenever I hold that bottle of black nail polish, I will think about this. I will think of what he said and I will put the nail polish back without painting my nails.

Delusion

I must be really desperate or something.

Anyways... I think I need to write this down to make sure that I will not be thinking too much about it. Write it and be done with it.

Erm...Know what? This is too scattered to write down. It will not make sense. In fact, this post is starting to make no sense.

My the other blog is... where I really put a lot of effort to make sure what I write make sense but here... I want to write whatsoever even if it doesnt make sense. So..here goes..

Look of self-disgust
Look of envy
Shots of embarassment
Stop staring!

I look at myself with disgust.
The layer of fats... I dont look flattering at all.
I envy those people who are slim and... most possibly healthy.
I hope my determination to slim down will last... honestly...

Then...there is this thought of this possibility although I kept telling myself that it is an impossible. Kind of shitty really.

Ah! I am going to sleep. Sleep it off.

Another frustration

These days, I think it is all about bottled-up frustration. I find myself keeping all my negative thoughts inside me because I dont want to bore people with my frustrations. I also feel that people arent been understanding of me.

How so?

Been boring to other people. Believe it or not, I am a person who wants to please others. I want to be interesting to me. Thus, I dont want to keep repeating things that I have said before or do things that I think will make people hate me.

Then again, recently, I have been, sort of, contradicting myself. Example, I dont curse because it is an act of a well-mannered girl. But then, in my previous post, the word 'fuck' came out repetitively. So, I guess I am not as well-mannered as I thought I am. Errr... actually, my vocabulary on vulgar words is quite limited.

Ah! My thoughts are so mixed at the moment.

About the part of people not been understanding of me... One situation is if I finally broke down. I have given up. I cant go on anymore. I decided to get some comfort from someone. But then, it frustrates me when this person, instead of supporting me (as in agreeing with me), criticizes me for being not keeping up with what I am sick of doing. All the blame is on me. Effect of this situation is that I dont dare to seek for comfort from other people anymore. I am keeping it in me. Bottled it up.

My upbringing has made me a person I am today. But my surroundings has affected me as well. i feel so much like a two-faced person.

Hmmm... I am becoming more and more frustrated at this moment. Cant continue to write. Darn...

Break from hiatus

Taking a break from taking a break...

I have a few things that I want to blog about but... somehow, the words just wouldnt come out. I cant find the right word to express it... It is so weird.

Currently working overtime and overloading myself... Feeling as if I am getting more and more unhealthy...

Ok, back to being on hiatus again. Another week to go.

One word

Hiatus

Lazy bones

Hmm... It has just been a few days after my exam...

I am not sure how will I fare this time. I am kind of worried. Erm... This time, the case study seems to be very confusing. Although I didnt really spent a lot of time to study, I have went thru the whole case study quite throughoutly... Still, I am still praying that it is enough. The questions in the exam were ... I dont know how to explain but I sure hope that I did it right.

After this exam, I am supposed to focus on my side income work. The work has been piling and left aside since I had to concentrate on studying for the exam. Now, I only have about one and half month to complete it all.

I havent been hardworking to complete the work... which is really bad...

That's all...

27 dresses

After quite some time, I finally get to watch 27 Dresses... the movie about a girl who became the bridemaid for 27 weddings before her wedding.

I admire the way she manage everything in between her work and accompanying the bride-to-be during the preparation of the wedding.

Love some of the dresses that she has...

Envy her body...

I just cant believe one thing. The fact that I actually have to divide the movie to three parts... I got to watch it in three different time because I dont have enough time to watch it in one go.

Scared

Those who knows my living condition will understand this.

My mum just told me about the latest robbery tactic... that is to get a kid to cry outside the house and then ask the people in the house to open the door and come out to help the kid and the robbers will appear when the door is opened.

If... erm... let's not think about it... There must not be any at all...

I am so scared now. I want to go hide in my room now. Why she has to tell me this?!? At this time of the night somemore.... Shit la!