Misunderstood and Accusation

Know the feeling of being accused... being verbally attacked?

Was I just too sensitive about it? I am not so sure. It just felt like I was under attack and I couldn't defend myself. Now that I think about it. I am not going to take back what I said. That is what I think and if it doesn't suits her, then that is her problem. I should not be bothered by it.

Another matter is with the recent accusation of the suspicion of me being planted with some curse. What kind of bullshit is that? And then trying to get me to go to this someone who is said to be able to detect the curse and remove it. I am not going. No way. Like another someone has told me, if I feel fine, then I shouldnt even give this a thought.

Hmm.. Sometimes knowing more is not necessarily better.

Suddenly

I was suddenly overwhelmed by the resentment of certain attitudes...

But.. I concluded that I am actually not resentful but jealous. Jealous of other people's good fortune.

I wish I can win the lottery so that I dont have to worry financially for some time period. But this is just me being a lazy bum. I am becoming more and more lazy actually. Sheeeshhh...

So.. being a lazy bum, I am also very dependent on others and I expect people to be totally supportive of me. I get frustrated when I feel that there isnt enough support. Darn.. I know I shouldnt...